Somehow, you love me.
Even when my bodies covered in scars.
Maybe I was meant to kill myself.
Maybe it was always in the cards.
Maybe I was created to die.
Maybe I will do it now.
Just saw this post on my ex-boyfriends wall about his current girlfriend..my cuts just started another fight…
Self -Harm Survey
How old were you when you started self-harming?  Younger than 4  4-5  6-7  8-9 [x] 10-11  12-13  14-15  15-16  16-17  18-19  20-21  Older than 21
How often do you self-harm? x Depending on what mood I’ve been in…  More than once a day  Once a day(usually)  Several times a week  Once a week  Two or more times a month  Once a month  Several times in a year  Once a year  I have stopped  I am trying to stop
3. What method of self-harm do/did you primarily use? [x] Cutting [x] Burning  Hair-pulling [x] Scratching  Interference with the healing of wounds  Hitting or bruising  Bone breaking [x] Cutting and Scratching [x] Cutting and Burning  Hitting Head against walls [x] Binging  Purging [x] Starving [x] Biting [x] rubber band slaps  burning with hot water
If You Self Harm What Sexual Orientation Are You?  Straight Male  Straight Female  Bi-Sexual Male  Bi-Sexual Female  A-sexual female  A-sexual male  Homosexual Male  Homosexual Female  Transgender Male  Transgender Female  Questioning Male  Questioning Female  Pan-sexual Male [x] Pan-Sexual Female (FAAB, Agender)  Prefer not to answer  Demisexual Female
Which Of These, If Any, Are Something You Struggle With Along With Self-harm?  Anorexia  Bulimia [x] Anorexia and Bulimia  EDNOS [x] Suicidal [thoughts] [x] Various Psychiatric Disorders (i.e. Bi-polar,Borderline Personality, OCD, Panic, Anxiety, PTSD, Dissociative, Impulse Control Etc.) [x] Learning Disabilities None of the Above ~Not Diagnosed with anything~
Do You Think That You (as An Individual) Need Professional Help To Stop Self-harming?  Yes, The Only Way I Could Stop Is With Professional Help  No, I Have Stopped On My Own Though I Still Struggle Often And Sometimes Mess Up  I Have No Desire To Stop And Therefore Don’t Need Professional Help  Yes, I Have Stopped With Professional Help  I don’t think I could ever stop without Professional help  Prefer not to answer [x] I don’t know
Are You Trying To Stop Self Harming?  No, And I Don’t Want To Stop.  No, But I Would Like To Be Able To Stop [x] Yes, But I Am Not Doing Very Well  I Have Stopped But I Still Mess Up Every Once In A While  I Am Completely Self Harm free  Yes, but I don’t want to
8. Does Anyone Know About Your Self Harm?  No. No One Knows  Some People May Have A Vague Idea Of Something  Yes, But Only My Closest Friend (s)  Yes. But Only Some Of My Family Member(s) [x] Yes, Some Friend(s) And Family Member(s) Know Yes, All (or Most Of) My Friends Know Yes, All (or Most Of) My Family Know  Yes, People that see my scars/cuts  Just a couple of people I trust  Yes, My Therapist, Psychiatrist, etc
How many years have you been self-harming?  1 year  2 years  3 years  4 years  5 years  6 years  7 years [x] 8 years 9 years  10 or more years
If You Self-harm, Were You Abused Or Neglected (either As A Child Or Later In Life?)  No  Yes, I Was Emotionally Abused  Yes, I Was Physically Abused [x] Yes, I Was Sexually Abused  Yes, I Was Emotionally And Physically Abused  Yes, I Was Physically And Sexually Abused [x] Yes, I Was Sexually And Emotionally Abused  Yes, I Was Emotionally, Physically And Sexually Abused Yes, I Was Neglected  Yes, I Was Neglected As Well As Being Abused  Prefer not to answer
Would you label yourself as emo?  Yes  No  I guess..? [x] Maybe?
12. Do others label you as emo?  Yes  No [x] Some People  I don’t know
13.What would you or others label you as? (chose all that apply) .  Prep [x] Goth [x] Emo  Punk  Nerd  Hipster [x] Pothead  Poser  Skater [x] Druggie  Normal  I dont know  I don’t believe in labels
- What is your reaction when you see other people’s self-harm scars/cuts/marks? (choose all that apply)  I want to get to know them [x] I wonder what they went through to feel that was a way out  I want to get as far as possible from them so no one will find out about my own self-harm [x] I will acknowledge them as someone who shares something in common with me  I would never even acknowledge them [x] What happened for them to start cutting  Fear [x] Interest [x] Sadness  Happiness  Don’t really care  No reaction [x] Surprise  Relief  Jealousy (if anyone has more than me)  Upset that nobody else cuts as bad as me  Happy that nobody else cuts as bad as me (at my school at least)